How easy is it to come to the conclusion of suicide and opting out, Most don’t give it a thought, but some people do and very often in fact daily. Alot of people believe its not a choice you can make lightly, i believe it is, doing it isn’t always as easy. I have become obsessed with the very idea of committing Suicide, its in my thoughts just about all of the time, ways to do it, even to the point of researching methods to make sure it works, planning too, and some kind of morbid fantasy of throwing myself off a bridge, if i lived near the Golden Gate Bridge i know i would of went there, if i would have jumped i really don’t know.
I ask myself if im depressed and i can’t seem to think i am, but am i thinking rationally when after all i want to throw myself off a nice big bridge and fly my last flight? Possibly i am, but i don’t in all honesty feel manic depressed all the time, sometimes i feel at my happiest when I’m day dreaming about suicide and how i want to do it, and get the hell out of life, its a journey in itself battling to stay here, for others more than yourself, like being forced to stay at a ridiculous party just to make sure you don’t go spoil the party for everyone else, and have them clean up all the mess you left behind.
