I have refrained from mentioning my attempts at suicide so far, only cos who really needs to read the gritty details anyways, the point is i have tried Twice now, once with alot of Alcohol and then tablets, to no avail cos i think i basically passed out and well I’m still here and the Second time was on my birthday, which i had known i was going to try and do.
I don’t think Alcohol is the best method and especially not to get to a drunken state and then take a load of tablets, just makes you ridiculous and not have any control at all over the whole episode, and why would that matter you might ask? It does matter cos I’m still here, so its a messed up stupid way to do it and results in failure.
(I want to point out that in no way do i encourage Suicide, i think life is worth living for those that want it and no method is a good one, I’m just expressing my views and in no way want to have others think any method is a good one.)